God Friday Meditation


"My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?
and are so far from my cry
and from the words of my distress?
O my God, I cry in the daytime, but you do not answer;
by night as well, but I find no rest."

Good Friday service ends with Psalm 22. I can still hear echoes of the voices reciting the Psalm. The decadence, sadness, and longing... It seems that just happened few minutes ago. My thoughts are up in the air. Some place where God lays. Where is God? I cannot find him/her. I call him/her but cannot hear me. I think I cry but I am not. These are rambling thoughts in my head. I want to go back to the moment where we spilled your blood and water. The four crosses of your table were full of your blood and water. I can hear the splash of the liquid falling into your table Jesus. What I have done? Your time has come. Soon, you will be gone. Now, your altar is your tomb. My God, my God, why have you forsaken me... Are you... really... so far from my cry? Are you? I am longing for your dwellings. I am longing for you. I thirst. I am longing for your touch. I am longing for getting closer to you but I feel abandon. I was looking for you in the silence. You were not there. Where are you?
         
           My God, my God, I am longing from you
           from the womb of my mother to the empty tomb
           my distress is not mine anymore
           my distress is the world
           I look for you my rock of salvation
           from the depths of my gut to the core of my heart
           My God, my God listen to me
           Are you there?
           Are you in the wind?
           Are you in the full moon outside my window?
          Are you in the golden cross?
          I see glimpses of you everywhere ...
          My God. My beloved. My comforter.
          I am longing for you.
          I thirst for you.







Location: St. Johns Episcopal Church, 12 Prospect Street, Huntington, NY 11743, USA

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